hahah. but this week has been quite enjoyable. i am starting to love blaw tutorials. btw, blaw is a module call business law. its hard core dryness. the tutor is one of the best tutors ever. her lesson don't even feel like its a lesson. its just damn fun XD makes wednesday a whole lot better. and financial management is getting into me. its the first time despite listening so carefully to the lecture, i don't understand a thing. it seems that only her tutorial classes understand what she's saying luhh. gotta start to read up before i get lost. i like tutorial classes for this semester except for supply chain, another hard core memorising and boring module. whats worse is the lecturer and the tutor being the same person makes stupid jokes, wastes our time to listen to her trying to act funny yet not funny jokes. there are just times she simply annoy and irritate me whereby i really feel like slapping her, ask her to shut up and concentrate on what she's suppose to teach. talking craps that is a total waste of time don't really help me in my studies.

realise everything up there was pure academic? cos i have no life. LOL!

had peppermint mocha from starbucks. its out for christmas only, go grab one if you have the chance! wasn't really used to it when i first had it and to me it even tastes weird while having it hot. but i realise. it tastes alot nicer when it cools down (: go grab one! i recommend it. but if you don't like to have your coffee sweet, better get your regular mocha. if you like the even sweeter taste. get the peppermint mocha frap. there's whip cream and chocolate syrup on it. tastes really nice too. wahhah. starbucks makes studying life A WHOLE LOT BETTER :D

oh, i think i'm sending in to sign up for bursary. since scholarship is practically impossible. i'm hoping to use the money for china itp thats gonna cost A BOMB. yes. you've heard it. A BOMB. i feel so guilty about it. i'm supposed to get paid but there i am. spending my parents money again to get a whole new experience. although i have totally no confidence in getting the bursary since my results can't be compared with the engineering people, my dad's pay gna put me last on the list, i don't even have an actual cca. oh dear. sounds bad. LOL. so i'm not putting high expectations on it BUT i'm still hoping that i can attain the bursary so as to use those money for china itp? hopefully? bahhh.

ok. thats about all. SERENE, i know you're really bored from studying and has been going around to blogs asking people to update. LOL! i hope this long post makes you feel better huh? so much better than nat's 2 line post right? wahaha. see you guys on monday for dinner! XD

having a hard time to adapt since I'm still in the holiday mood.

but overall it should be okay? i can foresee what coming along the way. especially for financial management and business law. Consumer behaviour seems to be like marketing research in my opinion. probably its because its the same lecturer again. oh yes, bad news and good news. bad news is i'm not chosen to be a smart leader. to say the truth, although i don't show it out, i'm pretty disappointed with it. especially when you know someone you don't see him as a leader is appointed as one instead of you. but its okay, i'll make the lecturers regret not making me one with my competency. enough of the bad ones i guess, now good news, i'm going china for itp. which means, next march to april, for the whole of 6 weeks, i'll be in china working in either suzhou or shanghai. most probably suzhou i guess since they don't have enough manpower in shanghai to make sure we're safe and sound. and now i'll worry about my survival there and yes. resume driving me crazy (: school has been okay, its crapping all day long with kahboon and gang. quite fun i would say. and one of the pleasures in school would be bumping into poly forum people in school. :D

i was quite depressed since last week. yupp. like mentioned in the previous post. not exactly a fantastic thing of course. i think its just because I'm thinking too much. hmm. i guess i kind of learned something out of it. i don't really know how to draw the line. like the line where how you should treat you friends. I enjoy to put a smile on their faces or if possible make them laugh. i love it when i see people smile i guess. but i do realise that its quite tiring as well. not only that, regarding the factors on how disappointed i'll get when i know they're not treating the way i expect them to be. at the same time you're scared of people taking advantage of you. ah well. i know its complicated.

so i've decided, i'll try to do whatever i can for my friends. even if people may laugh at me saying how i get taken advantage of. and stop expecting. its more about giving and not receiving i guess. enough of all the bullshit friendship problems, its time to lead a happy happy and yet stressed life from this week onwards (:

oh ya, before i forget, to all of those taking alevels this year, all the best okay!! i'll see you guys in uni 2 years later! LOL! hahh. those closer ones, see you guys after your alevels XD

i'm just really glad that i've been talking to my sis via phone these few weeks. those are the feelings that i probably won't be able to say it out loud to friends. i have told nat a little bit of the situation but i didn't really explain and tell her what went on. just kind told her why i was so disappointed in that person. told her that main point but people prolly won't understand unless they know the whole story. sis has been real encouraging. i love it when i talk to her on the phone, i guess the sense of security comes back within those few minutes. never really realised how i've been sharing with her about our lives. and i know she'll listen to every word i say even if she don't want to. HAH. sadly =p

If friends are really the ones that come and go, then i'm glad i had a sibling like her. Family are the ones that will always be by your side i guess. It doesn't mean that we don't quarrel or fight. But because we do it so often we seem to know each other better than anybody else.

hah. maybe because i quarreled with borui and gang in sec 2, i managed to get to know them better. i still kindof remember i felt terrible when we were giving each other cold shoulders. I knew i was damn childish =x hah. they're still one of the nicest, laziest, slackest, funniest people i know. i love them cos i know they love me too ;D this friendship will definitely last for a lifetime (:

shuxuan was another case. hah. marathon friend. she's the longest lasting friend i had. knew her since i was p4. a really cheerful and bubbly girl (: and before i knew, i've known her for half my life. she's that kind of friend whereby we don't have to meet up often but we'll just tell each other everything but our lives. we can never worry about the topics to talk about. i don't even have to worry that i would be ignored like i am recently. she's really one of the nicest friends to have. perhaps because we hold this special bond, i tend to speak in a really direct manner to her. i don't bother to hide any of my thoughts and etc to her. which sometimes, i still remember, in sec 3/4, hurt her. even though i didn't mean it. but i'm really thankful that i met her in my life. she was my first friend in cckps, she let life in cckps turn out to be alot more fun than what i've expected besides the bball team, she made life in 6B to be alot more manageable. hah. thankyou (:

hah. end of thankyou notes and all. no more emo posts anymore. school is going to start next week. i simply love my timetable XD monday no school, friday end at 12. yay! its gna be LONG LONG LONG LONG WEEKENDS XD

i'm just a little too tired to be the one who is always giving in friendships. (p.s. don't worry, got nothing to do with borui and gang ) i know i'm not a very nice person either. i'm childish, immature, bad tempered, you name it, i have it. which is why when i do have a friend that i cherish them. i do understand they have to tolerate with all the bad things from me, which i why i tend to give more in a friendship.

but it always lead to a certain situation whereby i don't understand why. its always the same scenario. we'll always reach to a certain situation. when they need me, i'm there for them. but when they don't need me i get kicked aside. being there for them seems so natural for them. its as if its my obligation. i don't deny that when i feel down they'll try to accommodate with me. they're still not that bad in the sense that they won't be there when i feel really down. but sometimes you can just feel that they're not interested in listening to you at all. which makes you wonder whether its worth it when you spend so much time and effort on them when they feel down despite you having exams and projects and etc.

twenty thousand reasons why i feel like an idiot.

btw, no nat, i just went against my mum for a few decisions that i know she'll kill me when she knows about it. =x

omg, i'm just not thinking straight am i?

anw. i think falling down while carrying a box of stuff to post office is TOTALLY EMBARRASSING!

yes. it is.

cos this post is going to end here!

WHAHAHA

oh, i just turned fatter instantly,

one night at my cousin's place,

2 kg gained.

i wonder why my cousins are still that slim.

i'm craving for some japanese curry at ion,

anybody available?

changi anybody?? *nudges nat tan esp*